To My Fellow Writers

This is going to be hard for some people to hear, but it is a lesson that even the most seasoned writers need to remember. I certainly need to remember it, on those occasions where I am feeling disheartened.

No one just starting out writes a masterpiece. Everyone thinks their first work is a masterpiece.

I did. It’s normal. But those starting out are the literary equivalent of a person picking up a guitar the very first time and then wondering why someone is telling them that their playing needs work and is not yet symphony quality.

It takes practice. A lot of practice. My first stories? I thought they were amazing. I read them now and cringe. You may be talented, you may even be skilled, but there is ALWAYS room for improvement.

It’s hard, I know. Offering up our writing is like offering up a piece of our soul, so much that any criticism of it feels like criticism of us as people. A lot of writers never get past this and quit after a story or two because people who read it never react like it’s prize winning gold – parents and family members aside – because it never is. Even Stephen King had hundreds of rejection letters before first publishing Carrie.

This is a hurdle you need to get past if you want to be a writer. No artist, writer, painter, musician, is ever gold out of the gate. Everyone has room to grow and improve. Everyone. Think of the most famous and acclaimed writer out there. That person got there by working very very hard and developing their skills and even they will admit they can always be better.

Learning destructive criticism from constructive is a big key. So is having a more realistic view of yourself and recognizing you are still learning and understanding that there being room to improve your skills does not actually reflect on your worth as a person. Trust me, every writer out there absolutely gets what you mean.

Some of my work has been praised to an almost embarrassing amount by some. And that’s great. That exact same work has been torn to shreds by others and you know what? That’s fine too. They don’t like the story, that’s fine. It’s not for them. If there’s actual constructive criticism in their comments that can be used to make me a better writer, I will use that and discard the rest of what they said. If there aren’t, I just throw the whole thing away (their comment, not the story) – it’s not for them, and some people just delight in being trolls.

You need to ask yourself some essential questions and keep some deep truths in mind:

Am I doing this to get praised for it, or because I love it and enjoy doing it, and want to get better at it?

Critique of your writing and even outright loathing hatred of it is not a reflection of you as a person – don’t take it as such. Take the good bits and use them to improve your skills, and discard the crap. It’s a reflection of them, not of you.

You are not going to please all of the people all of the time. It’s impossible. Even the most beloved authors on the planet have more people that hate or are even totally indifferent about their stuff than love it.

Be kind to yourself, forgive yourself for not being perfect. Realize now that you will never be perfect, and that’s ok. The rest of humanity will never be perfect either. You will likely never actually write a masterpiece. Neither will I. You may, but far, far more people don’t than do. And that’s also perfectly ok. It doesn’t need to be a masterpiece to be great, or to be worth it.

There is always room to grow.

If you have finished a story, even the first draft, that’s amazing right there. Believe it or not, that alone puts you above the vast majority of people out there who decide ‘hey, I think I’m going to write a book!’

Most never get that far. Be proud of yourself.

A Lively Order

So as I am working to finish my books and grow as a writer (a delightful labor that is never, ever done), I’m reading up on various ‘rules’ of writing. These rules, I find, seem to change and shift as to what makes ‘good writing’ from one minute to the next. Rules such as:

‘Cut out all words that end in -ly. Really, perilously, tragically, emphatically, probably, etc. Remove them all!’

‘Keep sentences short and simple! Keep words short and simple!’

‘Never use a verb other than ‘said’. Never use an adverb to modify ‘said’. ‘

And so on.

I love these rules. I also love breaking them.

Some I find extremely (look, an -ly word! Naughty me!) helpful and stick with them on a pretty consistent basis. Rules like ‘don’t repeat a key word too often’. Others, I stick with on a less consistent basis (see my -ly faux pas above). When it comes to dialogue, for example, I’m going to write how people speak, and people say ‘really’, ‘very’, an awful lot. They also tend to speak in rambling sentences with no passing concern to brevity, depending on the character.

Most times I will use the word ‘said’ as my verb, but on occasion a naughty ‘shouted’, ‘moaned’, or other ‘saidism’ will sneak its way in there. Sometimes, I’ll giggle in maniacal glee as I perform a double-should-never and have a character ‘shout happily’.

This highlights the one rule that I find has never let me down. It is one of my own realization and not stemming from the advice of others, experts or no.

When it comes to writing, as with most things, all in moderation.

Repeating words, putting in the occasional saidism, dropping an -ly word in the middle of non-dialogue like a mic that has gone red-hot – all can be quite useful tools in making an impact and controlling the way that impact hits the reader. Don’t limit your toolbox just because some ‘rule’ or other says to never do that thing. Look at what we consider great literary works, or even just popular ones, and see how often those rules become mere guidelines that didn’t make or break that work.

I mean, just take this single line from a poem by Dylan Thomas that everyone knows, whether they are a reader or not:

‘Rage, rage against the dying of the light.’

Not only did he repeat a key word too often, he did it back to back in a single sentence! Oh! The huge manatee!

A rule not only broken but shattered into a thousand pieces and sent off into the stars. And guess what? Every single one of those pieces embedded itself into someone’s mind. So much so that even if 90% of people couldn’t name the poem or the poet, that line is recognizable in an instant.

Follow the rules, but don’t be afraid to break them.

What inspired this post? Well, in my aforementioned reading I came across this line that, for me, perfectly encapsulates my mindset regarding them.

The writer must be able to feel words intimately, one at a time. He must also be able to step back, inside his head, and see the flowing sentence. But he starts with the single word. [They] report their vision in a language that reaches the rest of us. For the first quality the writer needs imagination; for the second he needs skill … Imagination without skill makes a lively chaos; skill without imagination, a deadly order.

Donald Hall

Go make a lively order.

Still here!

Been a hot minute since I was on, I know. Apologies to the couple of people that reached out about being beta readers: I had surgery on my hand last week and it halted any kind of writing for a few days.

But, it’s back in working (enough) order, and I should have responded to everyone that emailed. It looks like my beta read roster for Vhantalya is almost satisfied. If anyone else is still interested in being a beta reader for Vhantalya (or for Reboot when it’s done!) please email me at Melaradark@gmail.com. Include the name of the work you are interested in beta reading in the subject line, as well as ‘Beta Read’. Helps me keep track.

Edits on Vhantalya are continuing to go forward, a bit of a final face tuck before the runway show.

Writing on Reboot is trucking on again too. Just broke 70,000 on the first draft.

Also, I now have an account on Counter.Social! If you, too, are on that platform, feel free to friend me @Melaradark.

I hope everyone has a fabulous week!

Final edit!

I have completed my last read-through of Vhan, and am now doing my last final quick edit before going to beta readers, putting in the corrections that I noted, and throwing in a scattering of hints and changes that will tie it together with the (now planned) prequel. I expect to be done, with luck, before the middle of May. Honestly, I don’t think it will take even that long.

Again, if you have any interest in being a beta reader for Vhantalya, please email me at Melaradark@gmail.com with the subject ‘Vhan Beta Read’. I have beta readers lined up for Scarlett but only one or two for Vhan. I would like four, if possible, so there are a couple of slots available for anyone who feels they have the time, desire, or energy to read it cover to cover and answer a few questions.

Thank you!

Damn you muse!

So here I am, innocently writing away on Reboot. I’m doing a particularly difficult scene emotionally, and my writing tends to slow into short bursts when that happens.

I’m staring at the screen, my brain deep in the story, trying to get into the heads of the characters. Who would say what? What are they feeling right now? What would their reactions be? The usual. Totally focused.

And in waltzes my muse, a rolled up manuscript in her hand (my current editorial draft of Vhantalya, of course), and whaps it across the back of my skull.

BAM!

Just like that, I’m getting all sorts of ideas for a brand new book, a prequel to my Immortal Elements series. Characters, details, setting, plot; lions and tigers and bears, oh my!

Ok, ok, fine. I indulge my muse, flipping over to my bible for the series and jotting down some quick notes. Maybe if I get it out of my head and stored somewhere safe, I can get back to concentrating on Reboot. If I *do* write a prequel book to an already planned ten book series, it’s going on the end of my publishing timeline. There’s no rush.

Done, back to Reboot. Get another hundred words down.

My muse, the wonderful and hateful bitch that she is, is not to be daunted. The Immortal Elements series – of which Vhantalya is the first book – is a favorite of hers. In fact, Vhantalya itself came in the same way; with that glorious, furious nymph backhanding me over the head out of nowhere.

Honestly, I think she only talks to me at all so I’ll write this series. Allowing me to do my other books is something she (barely) tolerates in exchange.

So she hits me again. ‘Oh! I could do this in the prequel, that would explain that character in the main series!’

Jot it down again, start to look back at Reboot. My muse braces herself, lifts the manuscript high…

So, now I have a headache, and about ten more ideas written down for this prequel, and not another word of Reboot written. I’m afraid to look at it now. She hits wicked hard.

Hopefully if I placate her she’ll go back to sleep for a little while and I can get back to it. For now, I need to dig up my ibuprofen and probably some neosporin for all these papercuts on my scalp. Oh, also, I’ll be adding The Ruhkend Blade up on my book timeline of works in progress.

I’m afraid she’ll bludgeon me senseless if I don’t.

I artify as well!

Hello all you crazy cats and kittens!

So I don’t only write, I do art as well. I’ve been doing digital paintings for years (as well as photography). I have been getting back into it more lately to do my book covers, and figured why not do some illustrations of my original works as well?

I have created an ArtStation account to post my works, including my book covers and some fan art, as well as these illustrations. This is a WIP, but I will be slowly adding my past art as well as the two book covers I’ve done so far (For Vhan and Scarlett). Some of it may eventually go up for sale but for now I’m going one step at a time.

If you like what you see, feel free to favorite and comment! Heck, if you hate it too…why not?

Still ticking along on Reboot, and as soon as I get the end of the first draft in sight I’ll be doing a cover for that as well and posting it up. I have to say, so far I am loving this story!

Till next time!

Cover is up!

Finally! So it took a lot longer than I was expecting. Clearly I have a lost a bit of the old speed that I had (breaks out the walker and hacks a few coughs in geriatric), and this cover has a lot of little fiddly details that took a lot of time. Still, here we are!

I’m about halfway through my reread of Vhantalya, highlighting areas that I need to quickly neaten up, and then we’ll be to the beta readers. If I have talked to you about being a beta reader, or if you are interested in being one, please email me and include in the subject header which story you are interested in beta reading. I only need about four per story, and I believe Scarlett is full. Also, don’t limit yourself to just what’s on the front page! Look at my future project timelines and if you see any there you’d be interested in trying your hand at, give me a shout. Just keep in mind the timelines those will be finished.

For those that I select for beta reads, there will be a deadline to get it back to me, as well as a form that will ask particular questions or what kind of specific feedback I may be looking for, in addition to the usual general feedback. Mostly, looking for plot holes, inconsistencies, good pacing, things like that.

So that’s where I am with Vhantalya. I’m on schedule with Reboot as well, knocking out a nice ten thousand words plus a week. At this rate I should be finishing on schedule for June/July with the first draft. I might be a bit biased, but so far I think it’s some of the best writing I have ever done. After that, it’s off to find an agent!

Lastly, I’m also working on my artwork, not just book covers. I used to have my work on Deviant Art a long time ago, but l looked at it recently to see if I wanted to revive it and I don’t think I want to keep on with that site. Instead, I will be building a website and portfolio for my art on ArtStation. Once that website is up and running, I will be linking it to this page. I specialize in digital photorealistic/semi-photorealistic paintings but I want to expand my hand into more cartoon/animation/comic styles as well.

Love you peeps!

Some totally healthy and not at all disturbing musings

Me: Do you know what this book needs? A living mobius strip.

My wife: Give it teeth.

42 is the answer to the question of Life, the Universe, and Everything. I’ve heard it said that the reason Deep Thought gave this answer is because the asterisk, a symbol used in programming as a wild card or ‘anything you want it to be’, is designated in ASCII as ’42’.

Thus, the answer to Life, the Universe, and Everything is ‘anything you want it to be’.

I like that. That’s my canon.

Ladies, gentlemen, and all in between: for exchanges like the one above, and a million other reasons I could never hope to properly convey, my wife is my 42.

That is all.

Here we go…

Reboot is now at 3 chapters, 24 pages, and sailing along. Some of my best work, if I do say so myself.

As far as Vhantalya, the cover is almost done, and the final once over and polish before she toddles off to beta readers begins…now.

I Dudditz!

Hello everyone!

I was going to wait to post this until I had finished the book cover as well, but it’s looking like that’s going to take several more days worth of work to get it where I want it to be, so look for that to be up soon!

Exciting news to share! Yesterday at 2:22 pm I finished the second draft of Vhantalya! Yes, that means on Twos-day, 2/22/22 at 2:22 pm I finished draft 2. I laughed when I saw that. Hopefully it’s a sign of good fortune ahead!

Vhantalya, the first book in my Immortal Elements series, has been a passion project of mine for well over a decade. I wrote the first draft in just about two weeks, flat out. Over the next several years (longer than I’d like to admit), I changed the beginning a hundred times, added some here, took away a little there, tweaked this and that, and started writing even more stories in my fictional world of Kaloran. Intended at first to be just a little stand-alone one-shot, this story has blossomed and bloomed and inspired what is now a ten book series that will continue with The Tree Y’Edenel, due to be done in 2024.

This project has been especially near and dear to my heart, and I’m beyond excited to get it finished up and out there.

Next steps? Well, I’m not even going to look at the story for at least a week. I am using this time to finish up the cover and get started on my next book, which I’m aiming to have finished around June/July of this year. In a week I will do a start to finish re-read of Vhantalya, making notes and tweaking little edits here and there. Then, it will be ready to go to the beta readers. Once I have feedback returned from them, hopefully there is only one last spit-and-polish, and then it’s off to find an agent!

More to come, stay tuned!